I'm just writing to let everyone know that I'm overwhelmed with some pretty horrible things that have been happening here and don't feel much up to keeping this thing updated or even venting about it all at the moment because it's just too much. I keep watch on everyone else's blog and will eventually get back to mine in the near(er) future than later. I'm just traumatized and don't know how to put things into words right now.

On a side note, not everything is all that bad and I have some pretty supportive people surrounding me (not many, but enough). I also have been tagging along with Shane to rodeo recently and it keeps my mind in a better place.

I think the year on a whole is catching up to me and instead of getting better, things kind of keep getting worse. I'm hanging in there as usual.

I'm Not Dead Yet...

I think I'll take a walk...

Just a quick update. My 24 hour fluey thing I thought was going to kill me didn't and I was on a fire by the evening of the 4th. We just got home yesterday night. The crew hit 5 fires in two weeks and were jumped all over Colorado. I'll update more later but it was killer!

Not a great homecoming. I've got vet bills and boarding fees for my pregnant mare because she was badly hurt on one of the wrecked fences we have around here. She's going to be fine, but it was stressful for awhile. Luckily I have fantastic neighbors who took the situation in hand for me. Because of this all I've decided I'm fed up with the CHEAP owner of this place. Things are getting done, but not without him bitching every step of the way. If horses are being hurt, cattle are getting into the neighbors and he can't fix it, I don't know if I want to stay. As it was I spent almost my whole day off trying to get two horses out of a neighbors pasture. His attitude is: "if it's a free range state, they can pay to keep my livestock out..." He's so friendly eh? I just didn't need this stress as a welcome home. And to top it off I probably can't go out with the next crew because I'm SO needed in the home office because SOMEBODY didn't do their job and now I get to pick up the pieces because I'm such a HARD WORKER and TRUSTWORTHY. Great. So if I was lazy and worthless I wouldn't lose out on the few thousand dollars the next fire detail will make?

Sorry to vent. Things just don't seem to ever turn out the way I'd like them too.

I will post pics of everything eventually. Patience!

Uhhhhh...

I feel like poop. I'm sitting in the office because my crew is staging for a fire, yet we don't even have an assignment. Looks like I get to sit on my butt all day and do nothing. Happy 4th of July to me.

This is bad timing actually, but I can't pass up a fire since I need the money. It's just that I think I have the flu, or something, because I have been throwing up since yesterday, feel like someone kicked me in the stomach, have a pounding head and am alternating between freezing cold and burning up. I'm trying to keep saltines down right now.

So if nobody hears from me for awhile, I'm on a fire and got better. Either that or I died.