Sunday, July 22, 2012

Not My Year

Taking Wyatt to The North Pole in The Springs and spending time with him all weekend was a good was to put things into perspective.

Then I got home.
Not only have some not good things occured that I probably won't blog about, and that i'm having a hard time coping with anyway- but last week I decided to have my old black cat, that's been with me since I was a sophomore in college, put down. I was okay with it, but sad. She was active but skin and bones, and really wasn't doing well overall. I tried everything, but after six months of no improvement, and some worsening habits indicative of some pain, I decided it was time. What made it hard was I was accused of, "caring more about her anyway". So that was that. It made it a little harder after that.

And then today I found Dixie dead. My baby girl. The vet did my chores while I was away, so I know there was no neglect. I think it may have just been her time. But still. She was really bloated. I don't want to believe she died of bloat, I just think there were some things going on with her, and I had suspected for some time there was cancer present somewhere. She was happy and active, but had slowed down a lot. I just thought there was arthritis going on more than anything and just bought her a big bottle of glucosemine while over the hill. I truly thought I had a few more years with her.

So i'm not in the best place right now with everything. I may not post everyday this week. There is a horsemanship clinic at the ranch. I will stay busy with that all week and post when it's over. I need really good thoughts in my general direction. Sometimes I think I've been cursed with the evil eye...and if negativity can mess with my life...positive should be able to do the same right? Just make things happier? Anyway....

8 comments:

heather s. said...

I'm so sorry to hear about Dixie and the cat. I loved Dixie and have great memories with her, and that cat is the reason I didn't like cats for years since she used to jump out at me in the dark. ;)

Hugs from MI!

Dreaming said...

I have a huge plastic bin - I'm filling it with good thoughts and all kinds of positive things, just for you! Lots of happy images coming your way. I hope you can feel it - have a better week!

Carroll Farm said...

So sorry to hear about your drama... I hope things work out for the better - I am sending tons of positive vibes your way.

Erika said...

Hey girl.
big hugs. Can you send me your contact info?
erika.m.reynolds(at)gmail(dot)com.

BrownEyed Cowgirl said...

Awww...I am so sorry for the loss of your animals.

Sending hugs and positive thoughts your way. I sincerely hope everything else works itself out.

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AJ said...

Sorry to hear about Dixie and your cat on top of the other things:( We're here for you! Sending lots of good thoughts your way.

alanna rose said...

I'm so sorry about your furry loves, I know how precious they are to you.

I'm only an email away if you want to chat/vent.

I love you!